LETTING GO OF THE HAND RAIL

Remember those times in life where you just fell flat on your face...spiritually speaking. I sure can. God was always there to help pick me back up, as I'm sure He was there to pick up you too. Well, I'm coming out of a period of time where I didn't fall....I just had to grap the hand rail so to speak. I needed help keeping my balance. We've all felt the "blahs" before, but this was different for me. I truly felt the Lord leading me to Chicago. I know...wasn't that a month ago??? I asked myself where I missed it. I truly don't know that I missed a thing. I just consider it another journey in my life. I don't speak candidly about my private life except to my closest of friends, but I'll speak this. I was sad about leaving everything in Hendersonville. The friends I have...my church...etc. Brianna was still set to be a huge part of my life, and I would still get to spend a lot of time in Hendersonville, so that numbed the sadness. I was excited about a new adventure in Chicago. I was mostly excited about spending the rest of my life with the woman I love...Stephanie. The job and pay raise was secondary to me. It was the idea of having a family that was at the front of my mind. When I decided to stay, I know it was the "God" choice. The sadness I had about not being able to be with Stephanie set in after a couple of weeks. Of course I was happy about staying...again, that helped numb the sadness. I'll never say I was depressed. Let's just say I began to feel sorry for myself. I got in a "funk". My spiritual life went into "maintenance" mode. I didn't fall...I just had to keep myself from falling. June was a hard month. July began on the same note. I was losing my "passion" for growing. I guess it was about a week ago, that I just woke up and said enough is enough. God has blessed me tremendously here in Hendersonville, and He's going to continue to do that as long as I "stay on the road". I can't afford to take an alternate route on my journey. I look at the things God has blessed me with. My wonderful daughter who is nothing except joy in my life. The best friends a guy could ask for. I serve in the greatest youth group in the world. I have a family here. GOD IS AWESOME! I'm reminded of the passage, "Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." The cool thing about the narrow road....the hand rail sure is a whole lot closer to get to when you lose balance. For those of you going down the wide road....there's a hand rail there too. The best way to find it is by falling to your knees. Talk 2 u later!!!